Outlook on life | Victoria life photographer

Sometimes I need to really remind myself about how blessed my life is.  I have two beautiful children and a loving husband.  I have two careers that I am good at.  But sometimes it’s hard not to get caught up in the stress and business of life. Sometimes keeping up with life really takes it toll.  Sometimes I really want to scream – ENOUGH.  I’ve had enough.  And then I take a moment and I breathe… just breathe.  And I break things, throw things, hit things, eat sugary and salty carbs, drink adult drinks… and then breathe again. It’s hard not to give up.  It’s hard to keep going. It’s hard not to keep yelling at my kids.  I’m hard on me.

Then I breathe again.

And I remind myself to just be.

Just be.

Then suddenly I catch a moment when I see the world through the eyes of one of my children… the big wonderful, awe inspiring world.  And it is enough.  I take a breath and I can feel blessed once more.liam_fisgard2

 

Vacation with Gerome | Tofino BC Photographer

So in the main office of my daytime job lives a little gnome named Gerome.  He sat on a long time on my manager’s desk – and then Gerome would vanish for  little short spurts.  We found out that this little gnome was travelling the globe.  He recently stowed away in our luggage as we went on a family vacation to Tofino, BC.  (I will have to post my photos from that amazing week later).  But here is what happens when a gnome stows away with a photographer and her family.

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Adventuresome little gnome, isn’t he!

Life in Black & White | September

Welcome to another glimpse of my life in black and white.  After reading my post, please continue on in the blog circle to see a glimpse of Melissa’s life in black & white.

It’s September… and it should be the second week of school for my son.  Usually by now he is settled into his classroom, pencils sharpened and notebooks tucked into his desk.  He would be telling me about who he gets to sit with, who is and isn’t in his class this year, and what his first impressions are of his new teacher.  But this year is different.

Here he is waiting for his little brother to finish breakfast so we can leave the house.  But he’s also waiting to start fourth grade.

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This year has started the way the school year ended in June… no kids in the classroom and no teachers doing their jobs.  Instead they are walking the picketlines outside of empty schools, trying to fight so my son can have an education he deserves.

The BC Government is slowing tearing away at the foundations of public education.  Students in BC get $1000 each  less funding than other provinces.  Teachers are spending money out of pocket to create resources, learning materials and educational supports.  Children with special needs are losing access to much needed supports.  The government insists there is no money to meet the demands teachers are placing on them for (well deserved) wage increases, and class size and composition.  While I understand budgeting, the government is also being unrealistic with it’s expectations of these hard working individuals.  Class size restrictions and composition supports were stripped out of the contracts with teachers a few years ago.  These need to be returned.  Two courts have ruled that the government needs to bring this back.  And yet, the fighting continues.  Caught in the middle are the kids.  Kids like my son, who is a well behaved student, who does his work and doesn’t need much help.  The silent ones who don’t have behavioural issues or extra needs that demand more time.  Classrooms have gotten so crowded and teachers are dealing with so many challenging students, they don’t have much time to spend with someone like my son.  They don’t have help to deal with those that need extra attention.  Their time is spread thin.  My child deserves better than this.  Yet we can’t afford to place him in private school.  We can’t afford to have me stay home and homeschool him.  Why should we have to do that?  My husband and I were educated through the public school system.  My children have a right to that same education.

Wage issues aside, these two opposing sides need to get it together. They need to negotiate, mediate, arbitrate… whatever it takes to get the kids in the classrooms – with the supports they need; with teachers who feel valued and supported; with the education they all deserve.

I am frustrated, tired, angry… and most of all sad for my son, and the thousands of other students out there waiting… just waiting…

Embrace. Life. Moments. | Victoria Storytelling Photographer

Dish duty – Liam, age 4… also known as the day he spent 40 minutes happily scrubbing out silcone muffins liners, plastic containers and my French Press until they were all super extra clean (along with his shirt and the floor!)  He was so proud of the work he had done.  I was proud that he had learned a few life skills.  My husband was happy he didn’t break our coffee pot.  His big brother was happy he had 40 minutes of uninterrupted time.  Mostly, I realized how much my baby was growing up, and becoming a contributing member of the family.  He is on the bridge between young child and independent boy, and time seems to be moving at increasing fast intervals.  I can’t stop time, but for a millisecond I can freeze it into a thought-provoking, life embracing moment that I can look at and revisit over and over, and we can all remember those 40 minutes.

 

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During the last several months I have been on a journey to take my photography to the next level.  As I gain a deeper technical skill set, I’m also working on deepening the meaning behind my photography on a personal level.  I don’t want to just capture smiles in my photos – I want the smiles I get to be from looking at the moments I capture.  I want show a glimpse at my life now, so when I look back I can transport myself right back to that moment, those feelings, those sounds and smells, and emotions.

I also want to do this for you.  If you are interested in having personal, meaningful, memorable moments of your life preserved – send me an email.  squishy.prints@gmail.com  I want to tell your story.